Crying Angel

Thats strange you changed...

I posted enough things.

Its a random number to change at.

You get put up a rank when you hit 350.
I go up when I've done 600.

What then?

I'm not telling. Mostly because I don't know.

Ok then! Did you not write them?

No, i didn't. Admin did.
Join me on the chatbox!

Ohh! So what did admin say they were.

Didn't say.

i bet he did.

Nope. You're a Scary Bee!

Yay!!! I am!

I have about 60 to go. I don't really mind. I like being a Rolling Cow lol I like my cows!

i want to get to rolling cow.

That's at 520 I think. That's when I got up, I'm pretty sure.

it was.

RAH!

???

Don't worry

Ok..

I'd hit it like this.......
OH SH!T!!!!! I said that outloud didnt I *quickly steps backward towards the shadows, then turns, and runs head first into a brick wall* OWWWW!!! MY NOSE!!!
*falls over unconcious*
-2 days later-
*wakes up*
HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

... Okay good luck with that then.


Anyway...

I managed to make an avvy work for me - he's a cute little griffin sleeping. Aw, look at 'im. Inni cute??? I wuvs my little griffin! I'm gonna call him Cheim. That is Greek for Winter, btw. I'm a little obsessed with griffins and Greek and I'm a winter person so there you have it. Oh yeah I'm sorry if none of this makes sense... I have been going for over twenty-four hours without sleep now. Which is odd, because the latest I've ever managed to stay up before is 5-5:30am but last night I couldn't get to sleep despite lying in the dark for close to two hours (very boring btw) so I decided to scrap the idea altogether and played on my gameboy (yes I have one and I use it frequently what you gonna do about it, huh, HUH???) till I heard the birds singing. For a brief moment I lay in peaceful tranquility before deciding that I need to sound-proof my room and/or kill the bloody birds and returning to my game.

Ah, good times, good times.

I like me right now. Doubtless this will change as I come into contact with other human beings, but for now I will take this rare moment as one in which I am not filled with seething rage.

Wow, without the seething rage I feel kinda empty inside. Not the good kind of empty, the one where you feel you are missing something.
I'm scared now

This is becoming a sort of online diary for me. So, I want to make another website. One where you can have online diaries, actually good conversations, and... stuff like that. Of course, it'll just be me talking to myself, so I'll be driven by the fear of faliure to invite my friends. Which isn't something I want to do. I want to talk to total strangers. I hate this. This site has just become another place for me to be rejected at, another location to be left in a corner, left on a shelf to rot. My site. That I created. And no matter what I do, nobody seems to see this from my point of view for even two seconds. Or one, for that matter. So... What to do?
I'll call it Desperately Seeking. Because I'm desperatey seeking a place to feel...liked. Wanted. In a good way.

Thats really sad can i give you a hug plz??? -hug- that probably dosnt help you a lot though

no not really.

You could start a new site? And make it an online diary for people to talk about how they feel or whats been happening or just talk.

Isnt a diary spose to be private so wouldnt doing that be like everyone having ine big shared diary??

Well, I don't know, but maybe then they can relate to somethings going on and people in another country will probibly never meet you in real life so it doesn't matter if they know really.

true but were not in completly differant countrys ur about 20 mins drive away from me

Thats what I mean and she means! It will be her site and she might not want us there.

Well then she could ask us to leave?

I don't want you to leave

yay we can stay then XD